Fruit Loops (05/24/11)

Baby is not a fan of fruit loops. So far out of every thing I've tried, I can only keep bagels down in the morning. On a rare occasion even I can't keep that down.

I feel like crap today. I would have called out of work today if I had some extra sick time. We also have a mandatory meeting today. It would have been nice to just relax in bed while reading my book. I think this might have to do with me pushing my limits lately. Since I've gotten some energy back I've been trying to get caught up on things around the house. I guess I have to step back a little. DH would love to tell me "I told you so." He's always trying to tell me I've been doing too much lately. But I always do what I do best and tune him out. I should've listened. Don't tell him I said that though, ok? ;)

Tomorrow is my monthly check-up. Wish me luck because I'm nervous as hell about it.

14 Weeks! (05/6/11)

Today I'm 14 weeks, officially out of the 1st trimester! Where has the time gone? As you can see the baby is roughly the size of a lemon. The baby is about 3.4" tall and weighs 1.5 oz. Baby is getting there!

Your adorable little fetus is busy with thumb sucking, toe wiggling, (not so cute but equally amazing) making urine, and breathing amniotic fluid as the liver, kidneys, and spleen continue to develop. Lanugo (thin, downy hair) is growing all over her body for warmth.

I added a belly shot to the "Bump Photos" section. There's a bump there but I'm not sure if it's still bloat, chub or baby. It might be a mix of everything. I haven't been eating the healthiest lately. I've been eating what ever sounds good at the time. Speaking of that - if I don't throw up today that would make it 3 days in a row! That's huge for me! Considering I use to throw up every single morning and feel nauseous when I crawl into bed for the night. Lets hope that means that the ever-so-wonderful pregnancy symptom is on its way out. I've still had those nauseous spells through out the day but they usually quickly pass.

Overall I've been feeling a little better. My energy is coming back. Not like jump out of bed and run a marathon but I can actually do a few small simple tasks when I get out of work (put the laundry away, make the bed, clean up a bit, etc). I actually went to bed lastnight at 8:30 because all this week I've been going to bed at 11:00 and waking up so dead tired because I have to get up at 5:30... that's only 6.5 hours of sleep. I feel nice and refreshed this morning!

Well, I doubt I'll be back on before Mother's Day. I want to wish all of my Mommies and Mommy-to-bes a very happy Mother's Day! A special shout out to my Mom. She's the greatest Mom a girl could ever have. She's worked her ass off to support my brother and I, wiped every tear, comforted us when we needed it, protected us (a bit overprotective but now I totally understand why), taught us to respect our elders, always say please and thank you and most of all just to be ourselves. I love you more than words can say, Mom!

Can't Catch A Break (04/19/11)

I was just on the phone with my Mom and Dad lastnight talking about how great I felt. I was telling them that my symptoms are pretty much gone I just felt tired...I didn't even have an episode of dry heaving! Well that lasted real long because I'm having a rough morning. I threw up as soon as I got out of bed and had a yogurt because normally that helps settle my stomach. Notice I said normally? Well I got to work and settled in and wouldn't you know I threw up in my garbage can mid conversation with someone at work. He says "Oh my goodness! Are you alright?" "Yeah, I'm pregnant." as I wipe the left over throw up off my chin. Attractive, right? "I didn't know you were pregnant. Congratulations!" I'm really beginning to think this baby hates me.

Rough Mornings (04/12/11)

You know it's going to be a rough day when your day starts off with a rough morning. I woke up at 5:45 as usual to get ready for work. I did my hair, brushed my teeth and got dressed. I headed to the kitchen for some breakfast. I decided to have a banana nut muffin warmed up with a little butter and a glass of cranberry juice. I sat down and ate about half the muffin and drank about half the glass of cranberry juice. I started to dry heave. I quickly ran upstairs to the bathroom cupping my mouth because I knew I was about the throw up. Guess what...I threw up twice in my hand cupped to my mouth added with a mouthfull of throw up - unable to make it to the bathroom. I got to the toilet and bent over as I threw up all over the toilet and floor. I cleaned up and rinsed my mouth out. I threw up all over my outfit so I had to change. I packed a baggie of dry cheerios and was on my way.

Just when I thought my morning couldn't get any worse I almost was involved in a 3 car accident. Two cars ahead of me were tailgating each other and the car in front of them slammed on the breaks. The two cars ahead of me collided bumper to bumper. I saw that happen and all within .5 seconds I slammed on my breaks realizing I wasn't going to stop with out rear ending the car in front of me because my brakes locked. I quickly check my blind spot and swerve into the next lane. I had to pull into the gas station in that area for a few minutes to calm my nerves. The car that was originally behind me did the same thing and swerved avoiding being the third car.

Today can only get better from here on out. Atleast I get out of work at 12:30 today. I plan on getting a pedicure and taking a nap. Have a great day everyone!

Blech! (04/08/11)

Today I feel like garbage. I threw up as soon as I got out of bed this morning. I took a Zofran pill and had a yogurt and half of a plain Eggo waffle with nothing on it. I still feel like I'm going to throw up at any given moment. So much for thinking that M/S was on it's way out. Ugh! I hope I don't get a re-run of last weekend...throwing everything up including water.

Off To The Doctors (04/04/11)

How was everyone's weekend? Mine was miserable. All I did was sleep and throw up. Literally. Everything I ate or drank including water comes right back up. This morning I had a few bites of plain toast and water. I just threw that up. I called my OBGYN office and they told me to go in ASAP. I'm meeting DH at the Doctor's office at 10:30. The receptionist told me the Doctor has to look at me and may send me to the hospital to be put on IVs to get me hydrated again. Awesome!

If one more person tells me this whole M/S thing is mind over matter I have no problem ripping their tongues out and sewing it to their foreheads. Wouldn't that be a sight? I'd give my left arm to have an appetite again. Or even to eat saltines and drink water with out throwing it up. I would like to think it's mind over matter but it really isn't.

I Crashed My Car While Throwing Up(03/29/11)

I'm having a bit of a rough day today as far as M/S goes. I was able to eat half of an english muffin with a teeny tiny bit of peanut butter for breakfast - gagging the whole way of course. I slowly ate the other half once I got to work. After that was digested I drank some water and a few saltines because I was getting hungry again.

Lunch time rolled around and I decided that I was going to take a ride to Burger King because I'm craving nuggets and fries with ketchup. I get to my car and immediately started to gag once I turned the car on and put it in gear to drive away. One gag after another and I finally threw up in my mouth. I quickly opened my door to spit it out and as I did that my car rolled (I drive a stick shift) into a parking lot light pole. 'FML' I thought. Can today get any worse? I continue to throw up as people were walking by asking me if I'm ok and if I needed anything. "I'm ok. Just leave me alone!" was my reply to everyone that asked. Rude? Yes. But when I'm throwing up I just want to be left alone. I just need to let it out and I'll be fine. I rinse my mouth out and get my tired, stanky- breath ass back into the office to pout and eat some more saltines and drink more water. I still want some nuggets and fries! What's wrong with me?

I didn't even check out my car to see what damage was done. It shouldn't be too bad...I only rolled into the pole. At that point I didn't care about the damage. I threw up, I'm shaking, I'm cold, I'm tired even though I got a good 7 hours of sleep last night and I feel like a whale. I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired.

[starts sarcasm]Tomorrow I go in for my prenatal pap smear and I can't hardly wait![/ends sarcasm] I freakin' hate pap smears. I'm especially not fond of getting one done while feeling so shitty. How about I go to sleep and some one wake me up when November rolls around. That sounds like a great idea!

Breakfast (03/28/11)

[starts sarcasm]Happy Monday everyone![/ends sarcasm] I decided to give Honey Bunches o' Oats w/ Peaches a go this morning for breakfast. I sat on the couch eating my cereal while watching FOX News...my morning ritual. I ate it nice a slow because my M/S is horrible in the morning usually gagging all the way through breakfast. When I was just about finished I thought to myself 'Wow! I'm doing great this morning!' Well right after that I gagged followed by throwing up in what's left of my cereal...on the couch. I made my way over to the bathroom and finished my business there. I then packed some dry cheerios in a snack bag and went on my way to work.

My boss asked me why I was late. I'm not normally a minute late so she knew something was up. "I'm pregnant and I'm having a horrible case of M/S right now. Escuse me." I ran to the bathroom again to throw up. I rinsed my mouth out and went to her office to apologize. She laughed and said "Oh! That explains all the ginger ale and saltines you've been eating lately. I hope you feel better. If you're having a bad morning again just give me a call and I'll cover you." I feel so much better telling her because I don't feel like I have to hide it anymore. I found that she's also giving more work to my co-worker to give me a little bit of a "break".

M/S - I Hate You! (03/24/11)

Man, just when I thought my M/S has left for good it comes back to bite me in the ass. I had pierogies and corn for dinner lastnight and after that I had the worst heartburn ever. I watched my shows and showered to get ready to go to bed. Well while I was in the shower I started gagging and dry heaving. Awesome! I got out of the shower and barely dried myself off so I can get dressed and get some yogurt. I felt a bit better after the yogurt but still a pretty yucky.

I woke up this morning gagging. I attempted to brush my teeth and immediately started to dry heave. I spit out the tooth paste before I could even finish brushing my teeth. I finished getting ready and threw in some plain waffles in the toaster for breakfast...you can only have buttered toast so many times. I had one bite and started to dry heave. Wonderful. I was already running late so I threw what I didn't eat in a sandwich bag and snacked on them all morning until lunch time.

What's my point of this blog post? I f*cking hate m/s. Of course when I'm at my worst people just can't seem to leave me alone. I just want to throw up on anyone that trys to talk to me today. I hope and pray that it'll go away in a few weeks when I'm done with 1st tri. I have to keep reminding myself that it'll all be worth it when I'm holding that perfect healthy baby boy/girl in my arms in November.

Morning Sickness (03/17/11)

I absolutely hate myself for "wishing" I'd have morning sickness to "feel" pregnant. That must be my biggest mistake to date. This morning I woke up at 5:45 to get ready for work. I did my usual use to bathroom, brush my teeth, wash my face and straighten my hair. I then got dressed and the queasyness hit me like a ton of bricks. I was dry heaving and gagging like no other. I was able to finish getting dressed and get downstairs to eat a few saltines and drink some water. I was able to keep those down so I switched to lightly buttered toast. Well after two bites I ran for the bathroom to throw up. It never fails. No matter what I do in the morning I'm running in that bathroom to throw up. I pray to God that I wont suffer from morning sickness through out the whole pregnancy (like a few of my friends have) otherwise my weight will drop significantly.

Although I'm throwing up only in the morning I still feel really queasy through out the day. I have a few tips and tricks to help me get through the day with out running for the bathroom.
- Eat 5 to 6 small meals
- Chew sugar-free mint gum
- Snacking on sour candies & pickles
- Carbs are my best friends right now (rice, pasta, bread, potatoes, etc.)
- Lots of water helps keep the nausea at bay (try squeezing the juice of a lemon, lime or orange for added flavor)
- Keeping a sleeve of saltines in my purse just incase that moment of nausea hits I can snack on a few crackers to kick that feeling

As of today I'm 6w6d and I go in for my first U/S at 4:30 and I'm so nervous that I can't stop shaking. I'm absolutely terrified that they'll find an empty sac or see no heart beat. Or what if they find twins in there? That's about equally terrifying. "Today I'm pregnant and I love my baby." I was told that I have to drink 32oz. of water 45mins. prior to my U/S appointment too and I can't use the ladies room until the U/S is over with. What if I pee right on that table?

Baby Doesn't Like... (03/15/11)

So far is seems like the baby doesn't like anything I eat. It seems like everything I eat I'm in the bathroom right afterwards dry-heaving. This morning I had my first encounter of throwing up though. I made myself a nice bowl of cheerios and a handful of blueberries. I took 2 bites and ran to the bathroom and threw up. I was told by a few people "You will throw up. Just eat normally and accept it." With that advice on my mind I tried to continue to eat my cheerios and blueberries but after 2 bites I threw up again. After that I switched to saltine crackers for breakfast. I just can't run to the bathroom every few bites to throw up. I don't have it in me.

As far as my current symptoms:
- M/S
- Bloated
- Sore boobs
- Exhaustion
- Mild cramping
- Lower backache
- Stuffy/Runny nose

The symptoms aren't that bad except for this M/S. I feel miserable. At one point I actually wished to have M/S so I'd "feel" pregnant...well I totally take that back now. I wouldn't wish M/S on anybody. Cheers to my beautiful fellow pregnant friends!

Spotting & M/S (03/09/11)

Spotting. Oh jesus. I know spotting can mean nothing but when a pregnant woman sees spotting when she wipes or notices a bit on her panties she immediately panics. Well guess what. I've been spotting since Sunday. I noticed my first bit of spotting on my panties. It looked like tinged light brown creamy CM on my panties. I wiped and there was a little bit the TP.

I woke up last night at around midnight due to lower back pain, sore boobs and slight cramping. I got up to try and go to the bathroom. Turned out that I had a BM as well as pee. I wiped and noticed some clumpy brown spotting on the TP. Now I've read that brown spotting is normal during pregnancy, it's bright red blood or saturating a liner is what's not normal. I called my OBGYN to confirm this was normal today during my lunch break and the nurse confirmed that it's normal. I might request an U/S during my first doctors visit tomorrow just for that piece of mind that everything is normal and pregressing the way it should be. It just worries me that I've been spotting for 4 days now. ::shrugs::

I was hit with my first streak of M/S this morning. I tried drinking water and I gagged. I tried taking my prenatal vitamin and I gagged. I tried eating toast with a very small amount of peanut butter and I started dry heaving. How attractive, right? So far snacking on crackers through out the day has helped. Right now I'm chewing mint gum and I can handle it. Anyone have any tricks to M/S?